Genji Shimada (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
need_healing) wrote2018-04-05 11:53 pm
need_healing) wrote2018-04-05 11:53 pm
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[Leading up to the Shimada Clan's final days as a cohesive and respectable organization, Genji had thought that finally bringing low the family that had caused him so much pain would make him feel... better. The weight would lift and he would find some sort of respite from his emotions. Anyone outside looking in would have been able to quite simply tell him that such an idea was a load of shit, but it had driven him. Instead, when the deed was done and he's torn the last leg out from under the clan, he'd only been left with a feeling of aching emptiness.
Perhaps it had seemed strange then for that to be the time he finally agreed to the cybernetic streamlining that Dr. Ziegler had been quietly trying to convince him of for far too long. Her gentle approach had been rebuffed, if not outright ignored, every time. There was a part of him that preferred the hellish appearance Blackwatch had gifted him with, whether he thought he deserved it or it simply made his job easier.
But there was no job anymore. Certainly Commander Reyes could continue to send him on operations, but he's seen enough to know that even that isn't going to last forever. Overwatch, Blackwatch... it was all spiraling out of hand and eventually nothing was going to be able to sustain it. He couldn't stay, Reyes' wishes be damned, but he wasn't going to leave like this either.
He knows Dr. Ziegler worries about him- he fights her on it whenever he has his appointments. The rest of the time, when he's not in her office because he has to be, when they pass in the hall, or cross ways during mealtimes... it scares him. But he owes her this and he can't leave without her knowing.
So the night before the operation- the night before he makes his decision final- he sneaks out. The window to her personal quarters is on the tenth floor and certainly not an entrance any sane person would expect, which makes it all the better for clandestine arrivals. Bare metal feet make the softest of clicking noises when they touch down on the sill, the dark shape of his body nearly hidden against the backdrop of the night sky, save for the dim red glow of his cybernetics.
He shouldn't be here.]
Dr. Ziegler... [A pause, then softer, as if he's said something he shouldn't.] Angela.
Perhaps it had seemed strange then for that to be the time he finally agreed to the cybernetic streamlining that Dr. Ziegler had been quietly trying to convince him of for far too long. Her gentle approach had been rebuffed, if not outright ignored, every time. There was a part of him that preferred the hellish appearance Blackwatch had gifted him with, whether he thought he deserved it or it simply made his job easier.
But there was no job anymore. Certainly Commander Reyes could continue to send him on operations, but he's seen enough to know that even that isn't going to last forever. Overwatch, Blackwatch... it was all spiraling out of hand and eventually nothing was going to be able to sustain it. He couldn't stay, Reyes' wishes be damned, but he wasn't going to leave like this either.
He knows Dr. Ziegler worries about him- he fights her on it whenever he has his appointments. The rest of the time, when he's not in her office because he has to be, when they pass in the hall, or cross ways during mealtimes... it scares him. But he owes her this and he can't leave without her knowing.
So the night before the operation- the night before he makes his decision final- he sneaks out. The window to her personal quarters is on the tenth floor and certainly not an entrance any sane person would expect, which makes it all the better for clandestine arrivals. Bare metal feet make the softest of clicking noises when they touch down on the sill, the dark shape of his body nearly hidden against the backdrop of the night sky, save for the dim red glow of his cybernetics.
He shouldn't be here.]
Dr. Ziegler... [A pause, then softer, as if he's said something he shouldn't.] Angela.
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Anticipation crosses her face when he lifts a hand, replaced with quiet disappointment when he moves past her instead. Right. She can't blame him.
She turns to watch him go, barely bothering to try and hide the look on her face. They had crossed the point of no return, and she was too tired to pretend that this wasn't hurting her. But she wouldn't try to make him linger.
When he turns back around her heart leaps in her chest- it's too much to hope that he'd changed his mind, but...
She smiles, despite the heaviness weighing on her heart and walks over to him. A hand is lifted to cradle the side of his face as she looks at him, her gaze soft and sad at the same time before she pulls him in for one last kiss. All her aching and longing is poured into it, a kiss that can only be shared between two people who didn't know if they'd ever see each other again.
She has to pull away before she's overwhelmed, her breathing growing heavy again. Pink tints her cheeks and she reluctantly steps back, her fingers tracing his cheek before she drops her hand.]
Good bye, Genji. Take care of yourself.
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She steps back and he does let his fingers brush hers as her hand falls away, something that might have been a smile touching the corners of his mouth. It's an expression that never quite reaches his eyes, though. He clips his mask back into place and leans back in the window.]
Sayounara, Dr. Ziegler. See you tomorrow. [When they would have to pretend that nothing had happened. Business as usual. A last glance and drops away into the night, gone as silently as he had arrived.]